It is a super crazy scary thing to want something you don’t have but know with your whole heart you can do amazing things if you get it.
That is exactly where I am right now.
My camera bit the dust this spring. It broke my heart because I LOVE making silly videos. I’ve been writing comedy songs for a while now (including the country-smash-hit-if-it-ever-got-released “I’ve got a headache tonight.”) and my plan was to start my own web show and start showcasing the things I can do. But then the camera when kaputz and my heart went bust and I tried to be frugal over the summer. But with a particular sperm donor not paying child support, and 3 kids in glasses and yadda yadda yadda- there was never enough to get a replacement camera.
I started thinking about doing a kickstarter, but had some real issues with it. I didn’t want to feel like I was begging. Or asking for handouts. That was a HUGE concern of mine in the beginning. I couldn’t come to terms with it until I realized what it really was. It was asking for people to INVEST IN ME. To be a part of the story that is “Charlie and her antics that you all seem to love but really make me feel like a mess half the time but makes the rest of you feel like your life is normal.” (I’m 80% sure that’s the majority of my appeal. Lol) I also adore how Kickstarter calls the investing “Backing.” Because it does a girl A LOT OF GOOD to know folks have her back!!!
And the more I thought about the idea of people investing in me, the more I saw the benefit of that. I know a lot of people in my home town who claim they were friends with Dick Van Dyke back in the day when he lived here in Danville. Same with his brother Jerry. And Donald O’Conner. But I wonder how many people told them “I believe in you and your talent. What can I do to help?” Those folks are the ones that Dick, Jerry and Don probably remembered the most. Those who believed in them from the beginning. That’s what investing is to me. And that’s why I like am working on kickstarter to get the things I need to really start building my future.
It’s not that I’m trying to get famous, per se. I AM trying to build an audience and a fan base. I have been working on this for the last 5 years. It’s taken me this long to accept that I am ready for the next step. Working on my stand up and my music- especially my musical comedy. Finding a way to be funny, but make folks feel encouraged. Making a positive impact so people smile when they hear my name. (Just like I do with the name Jonathan Katz. And the name Jim Gaffigan.) One day I’m hoping to use all that influence (and hopefully revenue) to build a theatre with Matt. That’s his dream. He’s busy supporting our family now and he can’t pursue his dream.
But I can do mine from home. While he’s at work and the kids are at school. I can use that time to make funny videos, record silly (yet catchy) songs, and bring in a little revenue. I can do stand up in the evenings (and as soon as I start showcasing, that will help boost our finances too!) and on weekends. I can build the relationships that will ultimately help us get to the life we want.
I’ve always had a knack for telling stories. And making them funny. I learned that with my very first blog post on Operation Charlie’s Big Butt. When I talked about my first trip to the grocery store as a “dieter.” The confidence I have gained over the years about who I am has been solely based on ONE THING.
YOU. THE READERS. THE INTERNET FRIENDS. THE RELATIONSHIPS I HAVE MADE.
You encouraged me until I blossomed. You cried with me when things were tough and hard. You celebrated with me when I found success.
If it hadn’t been for you, I’m not sure who I would be right now.
But because of you, I know exactly who I am.
I am Charlie, the dream chaser. The adversity facer. The opportunity maker. The hot mess of a woman who is willing to take a risk on something new and scary.
And I’m proud of who I am.
I’m a funny girl. And it feels like Funny Girls Finish Last.
Which is exactly what I’m calling this new show. Because even though life rarely goes perfect for me, I still have fun. I still make it a positive experience. I might finish last A LOT, but I still make it past the finish line, and that’s really all that matters.
So, would you maybe consider helping me cross this finish line by investing in me? Even if you can’t help financially, you could share the link and tell your friends that you hope I make it. Which is amazingly helpful, believe it or not! I get excited over EVERY SINGLE donation, no matter how big or how small. (Not to mention I laugh my head off at people throwing in weird amounts- like an extra 68 cents on top of their donations just to be ornery and make me do extra math!)
I sure would appreciate anything at all you can do to help me keep the world laughing!
Much much MUCH love-